Monday, 31 December 2012




 salam and good evening...

few hours from now, in shaa Allah 2012 will officially end. sobs sobs. 2012 had been a great year for me. personally. as it brought a vast difference to me. school and senior year had officially ended on 28 NOVEMBER 2012. no more school uniform, no more school and hostel rules, no more 'lepaking' in dorm, no more 'DM' etc etc etc. i'll miss it. despite all of that, i will embark in a new journey to experience what life offers. like it or not, life's a risk. take it or leave it. 

i'm 'paradised'

this is the book cover ...

as the NO.1 fan of judith mcnaught, i've read paradise for...... i can't recall for how many times. the chemistry between the two main characters, matthew farrell and meredith bancroft was phenomenal. the truth is, no words could describe the joy of reading PARADISE. you have to discover it by yourself!! by the way, i have to admit the fact that, i've been seduce by this fictional matthew farrell. bahaha....

and these are several quotes from the book.

"You cannot outwit fate by placing little sidebets on the outcome of life. It's either you wade in and play in order to win or you don't play at all." - Matthew Farrell" 
— Judith McNaught (Paradise)

"How do you expect to keep our seeing each other a secret? You've been all over the news here for years. People will recognize you wherever you go."

"I won't be recognized, but you will. You're America's corporate sex symbol; you're the one whose motto is "If it moves, take it to bed."

Matt and Meredith"
— Judith McNaught (Paradise)

"Matt: I know you can cook.
Meredith: What makes you so sure?
Matt: Because less than an hour ago, you set me on fire."
— Judith McNaught (Paradise 

introducing matt bomer
haha, and this is my imaginary matt farrell 

sadly.... he's gay 

Tuesday, 25 December 2012

everything is going to be okay in the end, if it's not okay, it's not the end.

Thursday, 13 December 2012

family outing

salam peeps!!

a fortnight ago, we had this family outing at kuantan. it's fun. spending the past few days with your family. only.

and this is us!!

with the dearest cousins and brothers..

me!!! enjoying my treat!!

and this is muaz

hey ho, bon appetite!!

Friday, 7 December 2012


hey ho....
like it or not, school was finally over. OVER. for the past three months, i haven't made any entry. berhempas pulas nak SPM punya pasal. hasilnya..... tengok la march 2013 nanti. maan...i miss my friends. devastatingly. teramat sangat. tahap dewa dah kut. since i live in chenor, the chances to get to meet them was undeniably difficult. 

well, i have to say that, it's hard to not see each other faces when for the past five years you've been spending time with them, growing up together, eating together, studying together, laughing together, shower-talking together - aww, i miss shower-talking with izyan and syikin. it's hard maaann... it's hard.  

truth be told, the last day that my classmates and i spent at megamall was totally awesome. i wouldn't trade it for anything. haha... lawak lah time main bowling sama-sama. yang paling tak boleh bla when we have to say goodbye and went our seperate ways. at first, i manage to prevent myself from crying. but when it comes to qistina, izyan and etc etc, i cried. memang tak boleh nak tahan langsung. sikit pun tak mampu. they're like the  greatest friend i could ever had.
all in all, the greatest lesson that i learn in my senior year was that, there's a silver lining in each cloud. no matter how hard things could be, you just have to believe that you can overcome it.

from left: izyan, syikin and me

in happier times...

Friday, 3 August 2012

that akward moment...

haha. i never imagined this could have happened. not in a thousand years. oh, how, can i phrase this... last wednesday, 1st august, was SHAH's 23rd anniversary. in accordance to that, the prefect organised an iftar to celebrate the event. well, i have to say that the iftar was quite a simple event.  but the truth is, i don't want to write about the iftar but the event that had happened a few hours before.

it is nationally acknowledged that all SBPians were having their trial examination including me. the previous night, at the hall, out of the blue, syikin bakri told me that my 09-11crush had already arrived for the upcoming iftar. my heart skip a beat. but i was like, okay... do i have to give a damn about it? no...lah. i'm utterly convinced that his presence wouldn't affect me. 

after managing to survive at the 'battlefield' that wednesday, as usual, miss ann's cafe set ada extra class that evening. i wasn't planning on attending it since it was not official class at all. tiba-tibe si arham and hanis ajak masuk gak. i was like, WHY?? memang kene pergi ke?? my friends beria encourage aku masuk class petang tu. after knowing that there will be an experience-sharing session with you-know-who(kalau tak tahu nanti tanya saya). tak nak aku join. bahh, ni memang dare-devil punye kerja. mana aku nak sorok muka hah??!! mati aku gini.

tapi, kuberanikan diri. masuk 5jasa. ambil tempat belakang husna. tengah-tengah aku kucar, tangan parkinson + sejuk semacam, you-know-who and his three other friends came in. sudahhhhh.... nasib lah si husna dzeidee tu tinggi, dapat lah cover line aku. the problem was, dia duduk direct depan husna. kalau husna ke tepi memang nampak ah. mak aii...baru je nak start, adib kenekan aku. alamak, jangan cakap dia ingat muka aku.

relax, relax. then the session started, orang cerita ini itu, banyak lah gak diorang share useful info for the next phase of life. you-know-who told that, we need to identify our passion,ability and etc etc. nak senang cakap, kene kenal yourself sedalam-dalamnya. gali jangan tak gali. nak kata wonderstruck, tak lah jugak, tapi sumpah, aku jadi macam tikus dalam kelas tuh. haram, satu soalan pun tak tanya. teringat zaman budak-budak punya pasal. setakat nak pandang muka time dia cakap berani lah, nak buat eye-contact tak berani aku. 

then, time adib bercerita experience dia organised event, miss ann sebut pasal indonesia punya camp. ayat last miss ann sambil pandang direct kat aku. "kan s/u?" . hoh, habis the senior cari siapa s/u.  the, satu class pandang aku. gobsmacked. i am.

you know what, i never expected that the fact being in the same place with him, seeing his familiar face, could silence me. could turn me upside down. all in all, i try my best not to show it. haha, zafirah kau memang tak akan immnune dengan you-know-who.

Friday, 20 July 2012

lain kali jangan keluar musolla time maghrib isyak.... ye kawan-kawan =)


tersebutlah kisaaaaaaahhhh......
zafirah jamal.......
pada malam ahad......
ketika solat isyak......
(baca dalam ryme syair tau tau tau)

okay,hoihohiohi... bahak habis aku....serious zaf serious... time maghrib isyak hari malang tu aku bla jap tinggalkan telekung aku dalam musollla, keluar ambik angin lah nak katakan. then, orang azan isyak, masuk lah balik kan, nak solat. niat, angkat takbir, then........ jeng...jeng....jeng..... 

asal aku tak sedap hati ni. sal ada natang merayap kat badan aku?! jap-jap, perasaan je kut, tak pun setan memang nak kacau aku. berapa minit lepas tu, rukuk, SAH, MEMANG SAH LAH.... memang ni bukan instinct, ni reality babe.... think positif, think positif.... kumbang je kut.... tapi sal aku rasa geli ek???? wahahahahaa.....x kan cicak kut. please.... jangan cicak atau yang sewaktu dengannya....aku nekad, teruskan gak solat though memang badan rasa geli semacam susah lak pulak nak keluar saf. sedar tak sedar peluh gak aku nak tahan sampai 4 rakaat. 

habis solat, aku beria ah kebas-kebas, tak de mende pun, keluar lah dah(kut). i then made my way to bilik f5, nak pakai tudung siap2 nak pergi kelas akaun. time tengah letak bedak, tengok la dalam baju, DAMN, HOLY COW, BLAST THE THING, ADA CICAK!!!!! bukan cicak yang lekat kat dinding tuh, tapi some sort of anakmengakarung!!!! aku menjerit macam hysteria, husna dzeidee terus cabut baju aku. then, kecoh satu bilik tuhsince cicak merayap entah ke mana. auni naik kerusi terus. haru satu bilik!!! complete chaos i have to say.

moral of the story, lain kali jangan keluar time aktiviti maghrib isyak ya kawan-kawan....=)

-kawan aku kat bawah ni kirim salam

Tuesday, 26 June 2012

ke kanan lurus!

haha, the truth is, syikin inspired me to write this entry. last weekends as what was well-informed, shah held the 23rd KOT. i participated in kawad kaki representing murad. try cari aku kat line mana...

wah, sungguh awesome team kawad murad 

ceh budak berdua ni.....
nampak tak muka excited terlebih siapa??!! nampak tak??!

menang pun, yayyyy babeyh!!!

haha, after not so strict practice we manage to get the 2nd place. job well done muradian!! though murad didn't become the champion for the 23rd KOT, we did won somehow. boleh tahan banyak hamper kitorang dapat. it's not the fact of being a champion makes you win something, it's the extraordinary feeling you experience together with your house supporting each other make you feel like a winner!! haha...pelik semacam quote aku. le conclusion, murad did win KOT dengan gaya tersendiri... huhu

Saturday, 9 June 2012

mushroom soup for soul... haHA

we are made wise not by recollection of our past, but by the responsibility of our future...

-george bernard shaw

Tuesday, 5 June 2012

eyes open

The tricky thing
Is yesterday we were just children
Playing soldiers
Just pretending
Dreaming dreams with happy endings
In backyards, winning battles with our wooden swords
But now we’ve stepped into a cruel world
Where everybody stands and keeps score

Keep your eyes open

Everybody’s waiting for you to breakdown
Everybody’s watching to see the fallout
Even when you’re sleeping, sleeping
Keep your ey-eyes open

So here you are, two steps ahead and staying on guard
Every lesson forms a new scar
They never thought you’d make it this far
But turn around, oh they’ve surrounded you
It’s a showdown, and nobody comes to save you now
But you’ve got something they don’t
Yeah you’ve got something they don’t
You’ve just gotta keep your eyes open

Keep your feet ready
Heartbeat steady
Keep your eyes open
Keep your aim locked
The night goes dark
Keep your eyes open

Everybody’s waiting for you to breakdown
Everybody’s watching to see the fallout
Even when you’re sleeping, sleeping

Keep your eyes open
Keep your eyes open
Keep your eyes open

taylor swift

too close

haiyaaa... like seriously i'm running out of time. school's holiday is about to end meaning that zafirah has to go back to school. it's not the fact that i hate school, but......things are getting more intense the moment you step your feet at my you-know-what school. maann... can i like just avoid it?! 

well, spm is coming in november. there are few months away before the battle begin. haha....honestly, i'm deadly anxious since the ugly truth is i'm not well prepared. things do get harder. how am i going to face it...? spm is too close zaf....

Friday, 1 June 2012


well, how should i start this....

few had known that i'd had a crush on this person since.... since when haa?! i can't recall that, haha, i'd made a few attempt to try to start a conversation only to turn out with not so positive results. i'd guessed he's not the type yang give much attention to girls as he's a brainy . tak ke bagus tuh? concentrate on study kan?! benda-benda mengarut put aside dulu. fyi, he had been offered to further his study in vanderbilt university in nashville,tennesee thus he'll be flying there in the 20th of june!! how overwhelming is that?! haha, what a great outcome after burning the midnight oil  and studying in the previous year.

just so you know, he'll be studying engineering for 4 years in vanderbilt. whoahaha... lama jugak kan?! e conclusion, the end TF. 

so long and farewell then TH. 
do have a goodday in life
and i make sure to keep my distance... 

and then comes june...


i can't even remember when was the last time i wrote an entry. long no post, haha. a lot of ups and downs had occured to me for the past two months. nevermind then. so for the upcoming few months, i've decided to set and achieve few targets with my friend, madmoiselle syikin (II) sulphate. haha, you can acheive nothing without sacrifices kan?! so wether i like it or not.... some sacrifices need to take part in my "new deal" with madmoiselle syikin (II) sulphate. well well well, we'll see what this post will lead the two of us.....  bye bye...

Friday, 13 April 2012

a thousand whys....?


it is "universally" acknowledge that this person had stalked a person for the past few years since she was in form 2. she was having a hard time trying to forget him and deleting memories of him from her memory cells. well, she succeeded at first last year. then, when it came sukantara and KOT and etc, she failed.... haha, a complete failure i suppose.

in 2012, the mission ( should i really need to call it a mission?! haha) sort of berjalan dengan sangat lancar as she manage to not do any communication. maaannnn..... how can i phrase this.... huhuhuhu.... then, out if the blue, there he was, igniting the sparks that was almost gone. like why did he do that?haha, tell me why?? cehhh... huhu

i did berstory telling with my jiran sebelah katil, syikin and husna. i have to admit that M memberikan impak besar. hahaha, a single word from him could make me tak tentu arah like last night. haha. aiyoooo, macam mana ek.

maaaannn... this was not a good idea. aku baru lepas stalk dia jap. hahah, what an embarassing thing to do. bahaahahaa!! tapi nak buat cana, i couldn't help it!!


Wednesday, 11 April 2012

tegur orang pandai sangat, dia pun sama je...


so i was introduced to a besotted person last february and and he was quite okay at first. then, we started to get along.... then, when i returned back from last holiday, he completely change to a someone else. what the devil does he think he are?? duhh, nak berlagak alim sangat lah konon. blalah kau....

e conclusion, men are all same.

Sunday, 8 April 2012

hey you, congratulations...!!

bahaahhaah...... sumpah best gila jadi F

it is nationally acknowledge that spm results for 2011 had come out last march. and guess what?! MR F got straight a's!!! to be precise, 9 a+!! maaaannnn.... that was so amazing!! sumpah, memang tak boleh bla kut!! haha, i knew that he would be the best!! bahahahahaha.... tak sia-sia aku stalk dia last year. fyi, i manage to sort of contact him for the past two weeks. haha, credits for syikin bakri lah yang tolong mendapatkan number F dari sumber yang sangat boleh dipercayai. huhu, tak sangka dia layan. layan as in reply lah jugak sikit though i was quite pissed off texting with someone like him. it tooks centuries for F to reply. aku hantar malam tadi, tengahari esok baru reply. terbaikk lah. nevermind, aku dah lali dengan carrier stalk orang nie since form 2, so incident gini memang asam garam jadi stalker bahaha. btw, benda-benda gini at least dapat la nak hilangkan tension sikit kan. muahahahaha....(do i laught like some sinister stalker?!) haha...

Sunday, 11 March 2012


while i was jumping and dancing like a demented monkey with irfan my brother, listening to starship by nicki minaj , suddenly, out of the blue engku bukak pintu... bahahaha...memang best pun tengok anak dara dia melompat macam hape entah. then aku pusing belakang nampak engku terkejut semacam.... bahahaha... sumpah malu kut. sengal irfan dah menyorok bawah katil awal-awal.

adik, next time kalau dah nampak engku tu kasi la warning awal-awal tak lah nanti  kantoii

memang aku nak berjoget layan lagu ni... haha


oh hi there, 

boleh tak saya hendak meletak jawatan sebagai setiausaha rumah. hahah, tak pernah ku sangka kerja s/u di balik tabir ni time consuming. by the way, i'm definitely not that efficient like what others claimed. 

Friday, 9 March 2012

and then i do some stalking...

ok, kita sambung balik post sebelum ni.

since we didn't have the time to start a conversation or what. memang tak sempat la aku nak buat apa. syikin pun satu hal, yang dia kasi tahu lambat sangat tu asal, kalau tak, on the spot, aku buat modus operandi efisien!! forget bout that, life goes on.

so the following week, aku try la stalk dia on the net , nak cari some useful info lah konon. pathetically, i found out that he's in a relationship. well find then. sian zaff. completely hopeless when it comes to this part. honestly, aku memang tak ingat plus tak cam pun muka dia yang mana satu. tapi bila dah tengok dua tiga kali kat fb. hmmm.... how do i phrase it.... he's completely agreeable. not wickedly handsome ke hape benda.

so, tak rugi mana ah aku terguling tergulung laugh my ass off when syikin told me about him. end of story, tutup buku.... ngeeeeee....

cricket's "fling"


just so you know, aku dah terperap kat sekolah for almost two months without any pulang bermalam. and that was crap!!! but, bukan semua part la yang crap-nya. guess what?! activity menambah kenalan baru masa malam last HKSBP cricket was absolutely....... what should i called it??!!! woo...hoooo.... i supposed. dang, tak pernah aku buat kerja melepak tak tentu pasal, but since it's a chance of a life time... apa lagi. 

so there was this part yang aku, sykin n shafiqah temankan si izyan "berbual-bual" dengan dia punya childhood friend+ex-crush dia time standard 4, ada la sorang kawan kepada "childhood friend" izyan ni from .......... ( fill in the blanks la) ada sekali kat "crime scene". i didn't actually noticed him, but yang aku tahu time si "childhood friend" izyan introduce us, his name is........... ( perlu ke aku type haa??? sumpah koya nak mati!!!) zhariq. then, aku buat biasa jela kan. try to kacau-kacau izyan punye reunion conversation di balik tiang. muahaha..... 

di M09.....jeng...jeng.....
tiba-tiba........ cik syikin cakap si zhariq tu dok pandang semacam. i mean like asal? "die pandang siapa?" zafirah bertanya. "kau la!" syikin membalas pertanyaan tersebut. bahahahaahahhahaha..... terguling tergulung aku dengar. like seriously??? no way!!!! end of story.

* to be continued.....

Saturday, 28 January 2012

something borrowed... the review

frankly, this movie was released in april 2011, if i'm not mistaken. since mak cu baru beli, aku pun bari tengok semalam. it was great movie. it does proves that it's a thin line between love and friendship, though i've never experience something like that, since i never fall in love, since i do think it's kinda lame for me, since i'm still a student. end. full stop.

Rachel (Ginnifer Goodwin) is a talented attorney at a top New York law firm, a generous and loyal friend, and, unhappily, still single—as her engaged best friend Darcy (Kate Hudson) is constantly reminding her. But after celebrating her 30th birthday, perpetual good girl Rachel unexpectedly ends up in the arms of the guy she's had a crush on since law school, Dex (Colin Egglesfield)... who just happens to be Darcy's fiancĂ©.

As one thing leads to another in the frantic weeks leading up to Darcy's wedding, Rachel finds herself in an impossible situation, caught between her treasured friendship with Darcy and the love of her life.

nak tau pasal ending die mai datang lot 22576, kita tengok sama-sama!! (^_^)

rachel is so cute

awww... they were meant for each other. though i was pissed off seeing dex yang quite coward. haishhh... memang exceedingly mengong...

toodles peeps, salam....

Tuesday, 24 January 2012

chocolate amir ....

it had been a long time since i last watched malay drama. but this VANILLA COKLAT drama is exceedingly great and fun to watch! TERAMAT SANGAT!!! memang aku ada dengar my friends berchit chat sal cerita ni but then, memang langsung tak terfikir nak tengok until tonight!! haha, sumpah aku sangkut dengan SI AMIR uh.... frankly, he's quite an, wait!!!! he's handsome as sin.... i'm completely infatuated seeing that aiman act!! haha dah lah nakal nak mampus si amir tuh... bahaha

Sunday, 1 January 2012

give your heart a break

 the best from demi!!

part one of new year resolution

i, zafirah jamal,  going to treasure every moment of 2012 as it's her final year being a high school student. plus, i will work my ass off for the upcoming SPM!! 

that's all for today, bye peeps!!

the time has come....

A BIG HELLO 2012!!!! 

 happy new year people!! bubye 2011, hello 2012!! 

i didn't really get into the new year year spirit since my grandfather just passed away a few days before. well, i have to admit that, i'm devastatedly sad... but then, life goes on kan?! 

as for my holiday resolution for completing all my homework... it seem to fail, since i'm incapable of doing it all alone without any help from others. lagi-lagi account and add math. jawabnya, balik nanti have to berkongkalikung bersama husna dzeidee, izyan khatim and syikin bakri la...