pernah tak...

by any possible chances, have you ever experience the feeling when you want to express the fuss that has been troubling your mind, but you couldn't manage to do so... you didn't even have the small chance of doing it. well, i've been in that sitution lately. being at home, sleeping in my very own room instead of the sickening dorm is utterly magnificent. but then, being 24/7 at your home is not the greatest thing i'd wish to do. haha, how ungrateful... back then, when you're at the hostel, you've been begging for this moment to come. one thing is for sure, i miss my 'gang mengeteh'. speaking of that, i did make the effort to keep in touch with them, but still , they were acquainted with their own matter.

own matter....

i'm mcnaughtized...

as you people well informed earlier, i, zafirah jamal am the number one fan of one the world most great romantic novel author which is JUDITH MCNAUGHT.  you know what?! lately, i've been spending my time reading her magnificent yet heavenly novel!! my god, i have to say that she is one talented women...

so here are few sentences from her novel. wait..... haha make sure that you people won't fall head over heels with my CLAYTON WESTMORELAND.  yeahh mine!! hehehehhh...haha, how i wish i could like....slightly marry him. hence, if he do offer me hand in marriage i'd probably say YES!! hahaha, stop it zafirah, you're starting to sound like some novel lunatic...

here they are.....

tadaaaaa....

“If I ever think you are even considering leaving me again, no matter how good you reasons, I'll have you locked in your rooms and the doors barricaded, so help me God." He lifted her foot and began to dry it. 
Her voice shaking, Whitney asked, "Will you stay locked in there with me?" 
He raised her dainty foot to his jaw and tenderly laid his cheek against it, then turned his head and kissed it. "Yes," he whispered. 

-Clayton Westmoreland” 
― Judith McNaught, Whitney, My Love

lagi....

“Biting her lip to stop her chin from quivering, Alexandra raised her eyes to his. "I think," she whispered, trying to smile, "I shall wear the ruby on Queen's Race day, so that when I tie my ribbon on your sleeve—" 

With a groan, Jordan pulled her into his arms. 

"Now that you've said all those other things," she whispered when he finally lifted his lips from hers several minutes later, "do you think you could possibly say 'I love you'? I've been waiting to hear that since you began and—" 

"I love you," he said fiercely. "I love you," he whispered softly, burying his face in her hair. "I love you," he groaned, kissing her lips. "I love you, I love you, I love you…” 
― Judith McNaught, Something Wonderful

“We all do foolish things when we are in love. Don't we, your grace?” 
― Judith McNaught, Whitney, My Love

Clayton," she said softly, her voice threaded with tears, "when Vanessa asked about my accomplishments tonight, I forgot to mention that I do have one. And it's--it's so splendid that it compensates for my lack of all the others." 
Stephen and Clayton grinned at each other, neither of them hearing the emotion that clogged her voice. "What splendid accomplishments is that, little one?" Clayton asked. 
Her shoulders hunched forward and began to shake. "I made you love me," she whispered brokenly. "Somehow, some way, I actually made you love me.” 
― Judith McNaught, Whitney, My Love

“You will soon discover that in matters of the heart, memories are much kinder than reality” 
― Judith McNaught, Whitney, My Love

haha, sumpah tak menahan, sekali dah baca confirm sangkut

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with love to,

Clayton Robert Westmoreland(Duke of Claymore)

sehari selembar benang, lama-lama jadi ke kain?!

breath in.....


breath out.......

in.........



out.........

kayyy.... fuhhh...sumph pancit ngadap report bio. so far, dah dalam 6 report siap...so ade baki dalam 21 lagi.... banyak kak!! nak buat nekad tak start langsung, tak boleh!!!!! i'm wanna it badly to be in the budding doctor punya group. not that aku nak jadi doctor, but getting that kind of opportunity is like once in a blue moon.. so i'm gonna grab it macam mana sekalipun. sumpah tidur bangun, tidur bangun, aku buat report tu due hari tak banyak mane pun siap. lembap kut aku tulis, hehehee... anyway, good luck lsh ye cik zafirah dalam mencapai misi untuk menyiapkan segala special package for november-december punya cuti... pity you.... sape suruh jadi budak result ICU...

i'msicki'msicki'msick.....

since cuti kali ini the weather like tak menentu...my state of health pun jd up and down. adddooyyy!! sekarang sumbat hardcore kut. kalau ikut kepala nak tidur sekarang gak. but then, badan langsung tak selesa. kipas pun dah tak sanggup nak bukak, just so you know, my brother, irsyad, baru je kene 'chop chop' petang tadi. so, my parents buat la makan2. aku tolong half way je sine mmg rase macam nak mati with dis bloody flu.ingatkan dah baik dari demam awal minggu hari tu tapi tak kut. demam memang la tak de sangat da but, having terrible fu and batuk2 at the same time, adalah sangat sangat dasyat. this is totally miserable. i'm effortless....='(.....eeeuuuu... aku rasa hingus dah start... tut..tut..

-esok breaking dawn like dah direlease... nak tengok kut. pancit ah  

tunggu nak download pakai torrent

asdfgkl

It matters not what a person is born, but who they choose to be....

-J.K. Rowling

macamana-macamana sekalipun....

so far, hari ini dah hari rabu, jap.... selasa la hari ini. hmmm.... one of my 2011 school holiday mission, tak ter'accomplished lagi, nak kata tak start langsung tu tak la, tapi baru dalam 9.99% in progress. girl, cuti tak panjang kut. and next year kau dah masuk form 5. senior year.... like yayyy (lah sangat)

azab kut kalau aku koya time cuti ni. setakat ini, baru start buat yang english punye homework. mana tidaknya, teacher suruh buat pakai computer so jawabnya, lajula sikit compared to other subjects. as for biology, ha-hu-ha, mother of all homework, aku tak sanggup lagi tak start. banyak kut. well, it is universally known yang sehari selembar benang lama-lama jadi kain. tapi whooaaaa.... yang ni agak hardcore. i got 27 report to be made, a whole bunch of biology perfect score question and notes for chapter 1 in form 5.

but then, by somewhat or somehow, i, zafirah jamal am going to do it one day..... yeaaahh right, one day..... like when can i determine when the 'one day' will happen. hahah, come on, zaf, you ade spm next year girl and you're so gonna work your ass off. then, boleh la get some rest for like few months.... tak ke gitu...

 A good beginning makes a good end

awwwww.....

i've been replaying it for e entire day....

sekali lagi....

hmmm....

hmmmmmm....

hmmmmmm....

    how am i gonna start this.... let me tell you briefly bout the latest guy that i'd stalked. his name is THTAF( nak tahu lebih lanjut, just ask me and i'll provide you with enough explaination). he's so bloody intelligent plus he's the son of a whatsocalled pilot. i assume yang die ni boleh tahan loaded lah kut. but then, in school aku prasan die blend in je dengan semua orang. 

   speaking of his appearance.... hmmmm.... nak kate macam dalam novel JM like athletetic, immaculately groomed, muscled legs plus plus plus plus tu tak langsung. but still, in my point of view, he's quite admirable. many people cakap muke die baby face. entah la........ one of the major factor yang menarik perhatian aku..... his academic performance sangat sngat awesomeeee!!! second trial dah dapat straight A's. so, hopefully, spm ni memang dapat straight A's la....anyway..... life goes on, even if die dah tak ada next year. 

     one thing is for sure, he's the best thing i never had, sebab??!!..... heeeeee.... i nay make any effort to try to get to know him better. tak kuasa lah. the last time i did that when i'm in form 2, it ended with nothing except for the feeling of being foolish.... from now on, i  vow that i'll never repeat the foolish act once again, in my life!! 

      pagi tadi last nampak die in flesh, time tu otw nak balik aspuri. tak sangka pun. ingatkan kat hardstand sekolah tadi last. ala, aku meted plus neutral je, sebab aku memang stalk die kering-kering je not like the previous one... hehehe...  

so, to sum up all of the above, THTAF is the best thing i never had sampai bila-bila.... end of story..... ngeeeeee

hell of a plan

ouhkay,

seriously, menyesal habis jadi s/u. baru balik dah kapten suruh ini itu. sengal. sepatutnya, extand lagi lama baru senang hidup... ha...aha....

F.R.I.E.N.D.S

*just in case if you wonder , i'm  first from the right.

* and credits to  SPC.

breaking dawn for me...

             the truth  it's kinda pathetic, people around the globe dah excited gaban nak tengok breaking dawn while me, on the opposite site, baru je habis tengok TWILGHT. like duhh.... lambat giler kut baru terfikir nak tengok. well, i don't really give a damn bout the twilight saga earlier. lepas tengok twlight awal minggu ni baru rase macam nak usha the other saga.
         heheh.. speaking of the actor.... nak kate si EDWARD CULLEN tu hot, tak langsung, but still admirable kut laa... and now, in this very moment i'm still waiting for new moon habis download. nampak gayanya macam tak sempat nak tengok before balik hostel. nevermind, 18/11/2011 sambung the twilight marathon balik. bab, breaking dawn kalau nak tengok pun,  maybe kene tunggu dua hari download baru lepas tengok. sad gila.... nasib kau la zafirah. 

btw, tetibe rasa macam nak letak trailer cerita ni... 

hahuha... meet the mr. and mrs. cullen

*memang buang tabiat apa, zafirah tetiba nak tengok   movie gini

must read romantic novel.... WHITNEY, MY LOVE

ouhkay......

      so far, i think this is the best romantic novel ever. i repeat, EVER. one of e x-factors is that, it has great dialogue. muchmuchmuch great dialogue!!  what can i say, the hero which was Clayton westmoreland, a.k.a as Duke of claymore was such a devil. hahahah... sumpah, memang best giler. okay, let see... i've been longing to  read it before i finished my finals.
      hahuha... dapat pun akhirnya... the truth is, i could not find words to describe it. memang hardcore kut. mula-mula geram kat clayton then, rasa macam dia ni memang tak menahan. my god, the way he act, talk and whatsoever is extremely admirable since, my heart melt like a vanilla  ice cream ( is it true?!)
     forget bout that, tapi this story is/was the ULTIMATE LOVE STORY for this century!! (think so) . manakan tidak, my whole female family had read it since the early nineties. daripada che ngah sampai aku, MOI!! i mean like,who would have guess?! it's worth reading it. here's the cover. by the way, i utterly suggest you guys to read it.

bicycle

just a reminder

credits to person who made this

how come.....

okay.....

guess what?! when i need you, you weren't there. and when i don't, you were right in front of my very eyes. like why does this occur to me. when i want to post something badly, i couldn't have e blog, n vice versa. it's not fair though.

MURAD......congratulations!!!

to my beloved house, murad.....

i, on behalf of myself (ZAFIRAH JAMAL) would like to congratulate 'you' for your great + awesome achievement in SHAH UNGGUL 2011. maaannn, my knees were shaking hard when the emcee announce the result.... and in a wink of an eye, murad was announce as the winner!!! yayyyyyy to murad i suppose....  thank Allah, all the hard work do paid off, though technically, we're continuing the effort of our seniors, but still we do take part. speaking of murad, i manage  be the secretary for 2011/2012. who would have guest?! and hopefully, same will happen next year as it is the senior year...

what can i say.....

hmmmm....... ohemgee... sudah hampir ..... unfortunately, i can't recall when was the last time time i posted. what can i say.... technically, my life is being like..... quite hectic lately. not to mention all the freaking, fucking important stuff i got to deal with. forget bout that. now, yeah right know, i've been working my ass off trying to figure out like why i do, stalk that arrogant + selfish whatsocalled lad. he never ever care or whateva bout others.  go die man!! muahaha.... feel like kicking his ass, if i manage to meet him.... hmmmmm, i do try to avoid myself from being that stupid-old-fourteen-year-old-girl  i used to be few years back. but then, sometimes, it do happen accidentally. just so you know, i do share this problem with my friends, well, i didn't really help. plus, they were not in my shoes.