Self Question

I'm questioning the decision that I made back in march. is it really what I want? it is worth it? do I have what it takes to go down this path once again? I've experienced it before. it was traumatic to say the least. but somehow after two years, I decided to pursue on it again. tak serik ke zaf?! Dude I don't know, I barely even start, in fact, I haven't officially registered as a student. but the demanding requirement does freaks me out. 

doing masters by research is like on another level. i initially thought that it was not going to be THIS challenging. for a start, writing and developing a proposal itself is so damn challenging. I struggle in arranging my intellectual thoughts properly and clearly. there are new added elements that I'm not familiar with. there are things that i haven't done before, never heard of them till my supervisor mentioned about it. 

maannn, will I survived this... 

I'm scared... 

will i be be able to keep my sanity in tact by the time I completed this research. (if i managed to complete it) 

no one knows zaf

i mean I don't think I've made the wrong choice. but maaaan, i've been questioning myself like a lot 

lagi after my ex boss called last two weeks. There's a position available in the safety department but the thing is i already give my commitment to other things. and I have to keep my word. 

i hope i wont regret this decision.

i hope by the time i finish this research it will all be worth it. the experience would eventually help me become a wiser person. 

Bye, I should start revising my proposal

priorities 

priorities 

Thoughts on Dinner Mate Ending

this is why I hate watching kdrama 

I just recently finished watching Dinner Mate. maan, now I'm having major withdrawal syndrome. like i've mentioned before, dinnermate is not the greatest love story, but I love it VERY much! 

it's a light and fluffy romcom. the kind that makes your heart flutters. it gave me that fleeting feelings of being love. tho my love life is practically non existent. i missed seeing Kim Hae Kyeong and Woo Do Hee on screen. sometimes I wished both of them could date irl cause they look so good together. the ending was okay, kinda disappointing to be honest. They didn't even give us a proper kiss in the last episode. like why do you do that pd nim...

the first half of the drama was totally enjoyable, but it kinda went downhill after both of them introduced and know each others details. the conflict from exes was annoying, and the storyline that follows were not interesting enough. the drama could have explored more on the dynamic between KHY and WDH. their love was mature, there's no childish lovers argument, they trust each other well enough and doesn't get easily jealous. when there's a problem etc they talk about it with each other and pujuk if ada yang merajuk. 

goshh, I crave for that kind of relationship. being single for 25 years is not easy... *insert sad emoji. there are times when I wish there's someone out there who would treat me like that. tho deep down i knew someone like KHY is too good to be true. for a start zaf, he's a freaking fictional character, of course he's written to be a loyal, understanding and doting boyfriend. real guys out there are not like that zaf. you'll eventually be disappointed if you have that kind of expectation

omoooo, this is why I hate watching kdrama. now i'm feeling completely senduuu