i have warned you many many times before. it's not going to be easy. it was never easy. you've been in this situation a few while back. you do know the damage it brings you, why did you let yourself be fooled with such gesture. when things didn't go according to what you hoped for, you were devastated. again. i can go on and tell myself that i'm okay, i'm not affected with it. but yeah, it's bullshit. a part of me just died inside upon realizing the cold hard truth.
moving on is hard, but come hell and high water i'm gonna get through this shit like i did before. i'm gonna get through this. i will try my best to distract myself from thinking about it. maaaan, it does take a hell of an effort. pray hard that you'll survive this zafirah because if not aku pun tak tahu nak buat macam mana. need i remind you that you barely even knew him girl! it was just a few days spent under a certain condition. that's it. nothing more or less. so get a grip on yourself, do not get deluded with any fantasies or what so ever because this is not a cinderella story. you cannot meet prince charming in a forest. ahahahahahhahhaha.
another thing is, i do feel guilty for my sudden change of attitude towards some people. i never meant for it to happened but hey they've crossed the line. i have had enough. i'm not as plain and innocent as they think i am. so yeah. sorry not sorry for shutting some of you out my life.