The Endgame

hello there!!

for the past few weeks i've been living in the dark cloud of nothingness and uncertainty. yeah. i'm soo effin lost. i don't know what to do with my life. i am the type of person who gets easily overwhelmed and underwhelmed by small matters. pastu asyik terkenang nasib diri yang ... entah. i repeatedly ask myself this two questions over and over again in hope to find a way out of this dark cloud. 

"what do you want?"

"what is your endgame?"

*acah macam olivia pope pulak kau. 

after days of having all these deep convos with me self i'm glad to say now i'm in a good condition. i've sorted out my thoughts and manage to come out with a list. here it goes, my delayed 2015 endgame

1. Practice self love. though it might sound a bit selfish, i do believe that in order for us to love others, we must love ourselves first.

2. Establish a better relationship with my family and friends. sometimes i may come out as a very awkward person in front of you people. especially if i haven't seen them for quite some time.  i'll try my best to act accordingly when i met you people. gosh, i do value each and every single one of you you you you you you you you you you and yeah you, at the back!

3. Travel more.
i already made a few plans for the upcoming months. i'll start small. dapat explore dekat dekat pun jadilah.

4. Buy a cheeky camera.
ok. ni sebenarnya hajat sejak dari bangku sekolah lagi. tapi dulu  ingatkan minat ni macam hangat tahi ayam je, jadi lupakan la. but this so called passion ain't going anywhere. i'm eyeing on a few camera models right now. it's time to invest. and we'll see how things go from here. fyi, aku dah siap pikir nickname for my future camera. ahahah

sooooooo, that's all. i leave you with this:

"if you don't stand for something you will fall for everything"