1.1.2013

A VERY HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

2012

 salam and good evening...

few hours from now, in shaa Allah 2012 will officially end. sobs sobs. 2012 had been a great year for me. personally. as it brought a vast difference to me. school and senior year had officially ended on 28 NOVEMBER 2012. no more school uniform, no more school and hostel rules, no more 'lepaking' in dorm, no more 'DM' etc etc etc. i'll miss it. despite all of that, i will embark in a new journey to experience what life offers. like it or not, life's a risk. take it or leave it. 

i'm 'paradised'

this is the book cover ...

as the NO.1 fan of judith mcnaught, i've read paradise for...... i can't recall for how many times. the chemistry between the two main characters, matthew farrell and meredith bancroft was phenomenal. the truth is, no words could describe the joy of reading PARADISE. you have to discover it by yourself!! by the way, i have to admit the fact that, i've been seduce by this fictional matthew farrell. bahaha....

and these are several quotes from the book.

"You cannot outwit fate by placing little sidebets on the outcome of life. It's either you wade in and play in order to win or you don't play at all." - Matthew Farrell" 

— Judith McNaught (Paradise)

"How do you expect to keep our seeing each other a secret? You've been all over the news here for years. People will recognize you wherever you go."

"I won't be recognized, but you will. You're America's corporate sex symbol; you're the one whose motto is "If it moves, take it to bed."

Matt and Meredith"
— Judith McNaught (Paradise)

"Matt: I know you can cook. Meredith: What makes you so sure? Matt: Because less than an hour ago, you set me on fire." — Judith McNaught (Paradise

introducing matt bomer

haha, and this is my imaginary matt farrell 

sadly.... he's gay 

everything is going to be okay in the end, if it's not okay, it's not the end.

family outing

salam peeps!!

a fortnight ago, we had this family outing at kuantan. it's fun. spending the past few days with your family. only.

and this is us!!

with the dearest cousins and brothers..

me!!! enjoying my treat!!

and this is muaz

hey ho, bon appetite!!

december...

hey ho....

like it or not, school was finally over. OVER. for the past three months, i haven't made any entry. berhempas pulas nak SPM punya pasal. hasilnya..... tengok la march 2013 nanti. maan...i miss my friends. devastatingly. teramat sangat. tahap dewa dah kut. since i live in chenor, the chances to get to meet them was undeniably difficult. 

well, i have to say that, it's hard to not see each other faces when for the past five years you've been spending time with them, growing up together, eating together, studying together, laughing together, shower-talking together - aww, i miss shower-talking with izyan and syikin. it's hard maaann... it's hard.  

truth be told, the last day that my classmates and i spent at megamall was totally awesome. i wouldn't trade it for anything. haha... lawak lah time main bowling sama-sama. yang paling tak boleh bla when we have to say goodbye and went our seperate ways. at first, i manage to prevent myself from crying. but when it comes to qistina, izyan and etc etc, i cried. memang tak boleh nak tahan langsung. sikit pun tak mampu. they're like the  greatest friend i could ever had.

  

all in all, the greatest lesson that i learn in my senior year was that, there's a silver lining in each cloud. no matter how hard things could be, you just have to believe that you can overcome it.

from left: izyan, syikin and me

in happier times...

that akward moment...

haha. i never imagined this could have happened. not in a thousand years. oh, how, can i phrase this... last wednesday, 1st august, was SHAH's 23rd anniversary. in accordance to that, the prefect organised an iftar to celebrate the event. well, i have to say that the iftar was quite a simple event.  but the truth is, i don't want to write about the iftar but the event that had happened a few hours before.

it is nationally acknowledged that all SBPians were having their trial examination including me. the previous night, at the hall, out of the blue, syikin bakri told me that my 09-11crush had already arrived for the upcoming iftar. my heart skip a beat. but i was like, okay... do i have to give a damn about it? no...lah. i'm utterly convinced that his presence wouldn't affect me. 

after managing to survive at the 'battlefield' that wednesday, as usual, miss ann's cafe set ada extra class that evening. i wasn't planning on attending it since it was not official class at all. tiba-tibe si arham and hanis ajak masuk gak. i was like, WHY?? memang kene pergi ke?? my friends beria encourage aku masuk class petang tu. after knowing that there will be an experience-sharing session with you-know-who(kalau tak tahu nanti tanya saya). tak nak aku join. bahh, ni memang dare-devil punye kerja. mana aku nak sorok muka hah??!! mati aku gini.

tapi, kuberanikan diri. masuk 5jasa. ambil tempat belakang husna. tengah-tengah aku kucar, tangan parkinson + sejuk semacam, you-know-who and his three other friends came in. sudahhhhh.... nasib lah si husna dzeidee tu tinggi, dapat lah cover line aku. the problem was, dia duduk direct depan husna. kalau husna ke tepi memang nampak ah. mak aii...baru je nak start, adib kenekan aku. alamak, jangan cakap dia ingat muka aku.

relax, relax. then the session started, orang cerita ini itu, banyak lah gak diorang share useful info for the next phase of life. you-know-who told that, we need to identify our passion,ability and etc etc. nak senang cakap, kene kenal yourself sedalam-dalamnya. gali jangan tak gali. nak kata wonderstruck, tak lah jugak, tapi sumpah, aku jadi macam tikus dalam kelas tuh. haram, satu soalan pun tak tanya. teringat zaman budak-budak punya pasal. setakat nak pandang muka time dia cakap berani lah, nak buat eye-contact tak berani aku. 

then, time adib bercerita experience dia organised event, miss ann sebut pasal indonesia punya camp. ayat last miss ann sambil pandang direct kat aku. "kan s/u?" . hoh, habis the senior cari siapa s/u.  the, satu class pandang aku. gobsmacked. i am.

you know what, i never expected that the fact being in the same place with him, seeing his familiar face, could silence me. could turn me upside down. all in all, i try my best not to show it. haha, zafirah kau memang tak akan immnune dengan you-know-who.