not-a-random thought

don't you ever dare start 

no

just no

but if so

you'll be wasting your time

song of the week : Cavalier by James Vincent Mcmorrow (samuraii remix)

just so you know only two weeks left for my first semester in uni. varsity life has been incredibly hectic especially at the end of semester. there are assignments to be submitted, test, quizzes and presentations. maan, pancit oii nak balance academic and social life. lagi lagi since imma professional procrastinator. memang berjam jam nak siapkan satu assignment yang simple. apaaa ni?! 

lately, i've been spending a lot of my writing time listening to the playlists in 8track they got damn nice mixes i tell ya! i discovered this particular mix in ella grace denton playlist and it was love at first hear!

mencurah idea time writing bila dengar kicauan burung

go check this mix 

Sabah 2014-Part 3

well well, hello december!!

my social and academic life has been haywire for past few weeks. hence, i couldn't find an appropriate time to upload the final pictures from my trip to kota kinabalu. 

so here it is the final part of my sabah trip written at 3 in the morning

enjoy

the crystal clear blue water is exceptionally breath-taking.

to me, sabah is a place where you can easily fall in love with. i can never ever get tired of sight-seeing in sabah, the view is spectacular i tell ya! even the air you breathe is some what fresher and cleaner than in semenanjung. kl-pj especially. heh. maannnn, if i knew about the beauty of sabah earlier, i'd probably apply my bachelor studies at any alma mater in sabah. seriously! 

i can't wait to come back here and explore more things sabah has to offer like mount kinabalu. hopefully

see ya soon!!

song of the week : WHO YOU ARE

hello there!!

nak bebel sikit ni

honestly saying, i'm struggling with my time management right now. ke laut semuanya. and i don't even know whether i have a 'me time' or not. entahlah wehh. i couldn't understand why certain people even join a project but susah nak commit. hello, kalau tak nak bagi commitment tak payah join weh. senang je sifir dia. nak kata busy, semua orang busy wehhh! semua orang ada assignment, tutorial, presentation etc etc. kau hengat aku kat college kerja berlingkar atas katil je ke?

haihhh. and one of the worst thing that happened to me was that, i've been having countless sleepless night since last week. this mind, my mind to be exact, tak habis habis pikir semua benda. overthink much.  kalau ada on off button senang sikit kut. ahh serabut serabut. fyi, i'm not ms-know-it-all so kadang kadang memang clueless bakhang. so jangan la tanya aku semua benda.

despite the fact that i'm mentally, physically exhausted and homesick as eff  assignment jangan acah acah lupa zaf.

lastly, who you are is the song of the week that i can simply relate  right now, mann, the feels when hearing this song  for the first time. bergenang mata

i stare at my reflection in the mirror;

"why am i doing this to my self?"

losing my mind on a tiny error

i nearly left the real me in the shelf

no, no, no, no...

don't lose who you are in the blur of the stars

seeing is deceiveing, dreaming is believing

it's okay not to be okay

sometimes it's hard to follow your heart

tears don't mean you're losing, everybody's bruising,

just be true to who you are

brushing my hair do i look perfect?

i forgot what to do to fit the mold, yeah!

the more i try the less it's working, yeah

cause everything inside me screams 

no,no,no,no...

don't lose who you are in the blur of the stars

seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing

it's okay not to be okay

sometimes it's hard to follow your heart

tears don't mean you're losing, everybody's bruising,

there's nothing wrong with who you are

yes, no, egos, fake shows, like whoa!

just go and leave me alone!

real talk, real life, good love, goodnight, 

that's my home, no...

no,no,no,no...

don't lose who you are in the blur of the stars

seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing

it's okay not to be okay

sometimes it's hard to follow your heart

tears don't mean you're losing, everybody's bruising,

just be true to who you are

Sabah 2014- Part 2

next, we went to desa cattle in Kundasang. acah acah macam pergi new zealand you olls. 

lalang detected!

ni posing hero malaya beb! 

                                                                    YOLO!

after desa cattle we went to the famous kinabalu park. the weather was quite rainy and foggy by the time we arrived . but thankfully, the rain and fogginess resided and we could finally see the stunning outlook.  

you can clearly see the difference in this little monkey's expression in the pictures below. apa ni dik oii jalan sikit dah penat!

the death stare... if looks could kill i'd long be gone.

we went to tamparuli after kinabalu park. there, we visited the rumah terbalik and of course the famous jambatan tamparuli

i left you guys this picture of asang jet jet katang

that's all. 

part 3 is coming soon!!

hopefully.

Sabah 2014-Part 1

hey guys, what up? 

so in this post i would like to share my memories visiting kota kinabalu with you guys. since words can never explain the joy of makan angin with my family, let's see some pictures

muka excited irfan first time naik flight

we had arrived

it was raining on our way to Kundasang

woke up to witness the breathtaking view  of mount kinabalu

the big black ikan kelahs in scary as f. am not gonna dip ma feet in the water cause they gonna suck and bite ya feet till it came off. 

*this is nonsense

.

and off to poring hot spring park 

budak kecik main air

iolls canopy walking

Subhanallah, indahnya ciptaan Tuhan...

stunning stunning vista

so this is end of part one, there will be more pictures to come.
till then,
zaf x

getcha head in the game!

hey guys!!

i'm drowning in schoolwork lately. there are soooo many assignments to submit, videos to shoot, reports to write, activities to plan, meetings to attend. and yeah, my time management sucks. how can i avoid myself from being too carried away by all the time-consuming stupid and useless things. *cries

*me at the end of the mid-semester break

Song of The Week: Outside by Calvin Harris feat Ellie Goulding

hey!!

sup guys! so this is my jam for this week. gahd, calvin harris and ellie goulding makes helluva great music together!!  

Look at what you’ve done

Stand still, fallin’ away from me

When it takes so long,

Fire’s out, what do you want to be?

I’m holdidn’ on,

Myself was never enough for me

Gotta be so strong

There’s a power in what you do,

Now, every other day I’ll be watching you

Oh-oh, Oh-oh,

Show you what it feels like,

Now I’m on the outside

Oh-oh,

We did everything right, now I’m on the outside

Oh-oh,

Show you what it feels like,

Now I’m on the outside

Oh-oh,

We did everything right, now I’m on the outside

Though you give me no reason

For me to stay close to you,

Tell me what lovers do

How are we still breathing?

It’s never for us to choose,

I’ll be the strength in you.

I’m holdidn’ on (I’m holdidn’ on)

Myself was never enough for me

Gotta be so strong

There’s a power in what you do,

Now, every other day I’ll be watching you

Oh-oh, Oh-oh,

Show you what it feels like,

Now I’m on the outside

Oh-oh,

We did everything right, now I’m on the outside

Oh-oh,

Show you what it feels like,

Now I’m on the outside

Oh-oh,

We did everything right, now I’m on the outside

I’ll show you what it feels like,

Now I’m on the outside (eeeey)

I’ll show you what it feels like,

Show you what it feels like,

Now I’m on the outside

Oh-oh,

We did everything right, now I’m on the outside

you. yes, you!!!

the story of us

"this is looking like a contest of who can act like they care less"

sooooooo...

Irfan's Logic

hello again!!

irfan is my 6 y/o brother. he's well-known for being  charming,whimsical and a pain in the butt to everyone in my family. ecspecially me!! on the other day, he questioned my mom, below are their conversation:


irfan: umi, kalau boleh, umi nak jadi 'umi' ke jadi 'engku'. adik tengok kalau jadi 'umi' kena masak, basuh ikan, lipat baju. tapi kalau jadi 'engku' pun penat jugak. kena bawak kereta jauh jauh.

my mom: *speechless and reactionless jap.


heeeeee, bertuah betul. seriously, for someone who is six y/o, bapak la critical-nya cara dia fikir. i myself have never reach that kind of level. fehhhhh. kids nowadays...

i also wanted to introduce his new pet rabbit. the name has yet to be announced. dulu dulu time kecik pernah gak teringin nak bela rabbit, but since it takes a lot of commitment i gave up on that idea.

say hello to Rabbit!!

 lemme hold ya and make ya feel good Rabbit!

eh eh jangan lari!!

i gotcha now Rabbit!!

ada dua ekor sebenarnya, tapi yang lagi sekor tu hyper sangat so tak dapat la den nak nangkap gambarnya. toodles.

zaf x